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Covet

Does the world try to tell me if I just had a mile head start that I’d be that much farther ahead by now? What even would a head start look like when the goal is… What, death? There’s no finish line, you just keep going. I just keep feeling like I can’t make it because it’s too late, which I know, I KNOW, is not true at all. But what even are my goals here? Just get a regular job? I was thinking this morning that the boomers had an advantage because they were trying to discover themselves while being able to easily get a job / money. Money really is everything, isn’t it? Well it’s not actually everything, it just makes all the little things easier which is such a thing. I heard someone say once “sex isn’t everything, but it is something” in regards to relationships, and I think there could be a similar saying with money, but maybe more along the lines of “money isn’t everything, but everything needs money” or something like that. Just sitting here in the coffee shop (Peet’s) and ov...
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Where did you come from

I guess I'm just a giant blob sitting around doing nothing thinking nothing wanting nothing and being nothing. So that's pretty depressing and I feel like I don't even get out of bed, I just roll around and roll around and roll right back into bed again. But then, aren't we all just rolling around? OMG you're right that's so deep and you are a scholar!!! I guess it's just a bunch of things that I don't know what to do and don't know if I can even manage to do anything. There's something where trying feels like doing something and so I'm too afraid to even try, or just too lazy, or something. So maybe getting up early in the AMs and doing pilates would be not just good for my body, but good for my soul, which I still don't believe in by the way. BTW. Don't you ever just run into the same person over and over and every time it somehow gets more awkward? Like, you didn't think you could match the awkwardness that was your last ...
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